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Nikole Ye

Hi there, I highly doubt you're ever going to read this anytime soon, but I'm an optimistic person, so hi Nikole!

I've got a million reasons to thank you.

Thank you for being my first friend in primary school.
Thank you for inspiring me to study.
Thank you for telling me answers in tests (we didn't know it was considered cheating back then).

Thank you for introducing me to Neopets.
Thank you for sparking that interest in me to explore computers and technology.
Thank you for causing me to wear spectacles.

Thank you for leaving.

Thank you for coming back.

Thank you for always succumbing to peer pressure to hang out.
Thank you for always listening to my rants.
Thank you for always being there.

Thank you for being you.

You might not notice this, but you've shaped who I am today.

Last minute hangout at KLCC park. Thanks for taking pictures with us, because we know it is almost impossible to catch you in a picture without your hands covering your face.























Thanks dear.

Have a great 18th year of your life on earth.

Fear

When we were children we'd play
Out in the streets just dipped in fate
When we were children we'd say
That we don't the meaning of
Fear, fear, fear,
Fear, fear, fear
We dont know the meaning of...

I have a theory: the older we get, the more fears we have.

As a baby, I knew nuts, for real. I'd pee, poop and wiggle body parts deemed 'private'. As I went through this thing called life and gained a few years, I became a child. I dreamt of being an artist and travel around the world (stars, moon and Mars included). I climbed 2 storey high ladders and collected several stitches. Several pimples and hormones later, I don't play with fire, because I know it burns. I don't sit in taxis alone, because the taxi driver might be a serial killer. 

Here's a story of 7 teenagers that didn't know the meaning of fear.

It was just like every other holiday. No school. No college. 

All the 7 of us had were time, a little money, a Myvi and a Beetle.

Little did we know, those resources brought us 50km away to Sepang Goldcoast. We didn't know the way there, all we had were two GPS devices and lots of faith in them. It was the second day since Pauline got her driving license, it hasn't even been a week! Roy sprained his ankle an hour before that and still drove. We weren't dressed for the occasion and neither did we have towels or sun block. 

In short, we were severely unprepared.

But the thing is, we did it anyway. And it was adventurous. Definitely a day to remember for life.

And I got my arse whopped when I got home. According to parents aged 50 and over, it is totally unacceptable for young kids with P licenses to drive a few hours to an unknown destination without a map and without parental permission and guidance. I answered them, "If I had told you, I couldn't have went." 

Fear less, not fearless.

Dream Team

As of recently, ultimate frisbee has turned into a very in thing. No, ultimate frisbee is not a noun describing a frisbee with ultimate superpowers, it's a sport for your momma so fat jokes' sake. But for the few of us, it is more than a sport, it is a reason to gather and be with each other, and at the same time, distract us from indulging ourselves in other more costly or unhealthy activities, such as eating, because frankly, we can't help not eating. Plus, ultimate frisbee sounds like a really good excuse to our parents for coming home late at outrageous hours, because apparently, it's better to play sports at night because the sun isn't out and we'll protect our precious skins from harsh ultraviolet rays. (It always works).

Remember our names, people. Because one day, we're going to make it big. Be it next year or 50 years down the road with walking sticks and wheelchairs, we'll be up there, somewhere.

However, as of right now, we don't have an ultra cool name to associate ourselves with, neither do we have an official training time or even a coach. But one thing should stick in your mind, BIG. US. YES. WE. CAN.

Kay Elle.

I don't hang out at KL much, and by that I meant KL city centre. But when I do, it gets pretty fun.

For one, I like to window shop at Uniqlo. The clothes there are just different from what is available elsewhere. Such a pity the stuff there aren't cheap and hence, I do not own a single piece of clothing from that Japanese brand. Oh did I mention how fun it is to go up and down those extremely narrow escalators and have a good ol' game of who is stronger by seeing who can lift themselves longer.

Then, I like to walk around aimlessly. It's not like I would really want to walk around with no direction in mind, but I just don't seem to know the area well enough to know where I am heading. This reminds me of an instance in the past when I had to call Ainsley for directions from KLCC to Pavilion, which was embarrassing, because I called her like, 5 times? Anyway, there's lots to see at KL, and even more opportunities to behave like tourists, posing with anything and everything peculiar.

Sunway Lagoon mascot smacked right in the middle of KL? Very misleading.

Moreover, there's Pavilion. I absolutely love that place because there's Tangs and Crumpler. The Tangs there is way better than the one over at Empire Gallery, they stock Fred Perry and Nixon! Food there is kind of a rip off, though. Overpriced, substandard meals.

Last but not least, I like to people watch. The people there come in all shapes and sizes: the roadside dancers, the punk rock looking goths with a guitar, watch peddlers and lots of ang mohs. The best part, they don't seem to notice your presence, so you can just stop and stare however long you want.

Likewise, the hangout with Hui Wen during the 4 days of semester break was nice. As she kept on reminding, this is the first time that we're hanging out, just the two of us. Well, she is after all the only high school friend whom studies same course as me in college. 

Cheers to happy ever after. =)

Marchin' On

Exam results are out.

I'd say my results were very unexpected. I flunked the subjects I thought I would do well in, where else, I excelled in the ones I thought I did terribly *cough* English *cough*.

I don't know about you but as for me, the recent evaluation exams really showed the type of person we truly are. It revealed our true colours.

Not just in terms of academic standings, but also our values and our inner strengths.

The lecturers did set the bar high this time round. A perfect score was almost impossible to achieve, causing the high achievers to be further segregated into the good, the great and the extraordinary categories. This is also true the other way round, you would be able to notice the differences between the ones who fail, and the ones who just fail terribly. It's a sad world out there. Oh and it is evident on how the JPA scholars manage to crush the January and March intakes, and they did so with no mercy.

The one thing that I abhor the most about exam results and academic rankings is how we are labelled according to the numbers we get, the higher the better (obviously). A few digits can only mean so much, but it shouldn't determine a failure from a success (the life, I mean). With all truthfulness, from the bottom of my heart, I'd let go a couple of marks for the things I deem more valuable than studies. Yes, you read that right. As kiasu-looking as I might seem like, studies are not my everything. I work hard, but I play hard too. However, it is a matter of what you prioritise in life. As for me, I don't want to grow old regretting the things I did not do when I was young, just because I had to study.

Next up, values. During the few days leading up to the exams, it is only natural that all of us go through a studying frenzy. But when you decide to not teach others for fear of wasting precious time, that just tells so much about the kind of person some people really are.

Lastly, every action creates a reaction. Results would bring happiness or disappointment. I'd like to emphasise on the latter. It is normal to feel the letdown. I'll tell you what's not okay. It is totally unacceptable for you to linger in that moment of sadness for more than a day. Brush it off. It ain't about how much you failed, but it's about how you failed and manage to keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.

There's so many wars we fought, there's so many things we're not, but with what we have, I promise you that, we're marchin' on! For all of the plans we've made, there isn't a flag I'd wave, don't care where we've been, I'd sink us to swim, we're marchin' on!
-OneRepublic

Holidays

Actually, I did not really count the 4 days of so called semester break as a holiday. Geez, do you know how sad 4 days of holidays are? They're as short as your pinky finger.

Nevertheless, had the time of my life with the people that matter. Thanks.

ILOVEMYLIFE.

Normalcy.

We're halfway through 2011. For some of them out there, we're 6 months away from the end of the world, Year 2012.

The sad thing is, I do not remember doing anything significant this year. All I've remembered of myself is I was constantly waiting for the next thing to happen - the next test, the next weekend, the next assignment deadline, the next month. I forget to get 'stuck' in the moment, just like what Justin Bieber sings about.

I am contented with my life, I sincerely am. I love my family, I love my friends, I love the things I have and I love the things I don't have. But I just want more. I don't want to breeze through my life just like how I did the past 6 months. I don't want to grow old and remember myself merely living through my teenage years. Switchfoot has got it right with the lyrics "I want more than fine, more than just okay."

"This is your life, are you who you want to be?
Is it everything you dreamed that it would be when the world was younger, and you had everything to lose?"

4 days before a new semester awaits. Time to go out there and live life.